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Dear Father,
Today has been the clumonation of a lot of emotions. I guess feeling insecure and unloved has been the root o the problem. I don't feel bitter toward mom but I feel hurt by her rejection of me when I was little, her failure to protect me and choose me and her tendency to cut me off. I love her very much and I want to give my heart to her but I am afraid of being hurt.This has carried over into other areas of my life. I try to be useful enough to earn acceptance. Then, Father, You remind me that You love me unconditionally. I have a desire for someone to hear my story and love me. You have and do. You have taken me up. There are so many things that I need Your helpto get over. So many lies and deceptions I struggle with. Father, please draw me near. Jesus, nothing may I see,
Nothing desire or seek but Thee.
